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Lifeslurper resides in a big brown land called Auuustralia. Her early years remain a mystery cloaked in a veil of depression.

Age 42 Lifeslurper meets the vague but gorgeous Wobbles. “What took him so long to arrive?” She asks.

They make their way together in the world just fine, but are not fine to make a baby – not without some outside help. Enter ART and 2008 the year of 4 IVF cycles & one lousy big fat negative.

Lifeslurper is now 47 years old! Time for a baby is running out fast, so too is her sanity. Now it's 2011 - Lifeslurper & Wobbles have moved into top baby making gear. Donor Egg Cycles are the way to go, after a long pause to take stock after a glorious donor egg BFP & the subsequent loss. This year saw 2 cancelled FET cycles, & and menopause causing delays.

Where to from here? After 10 cycles Lifeslurper & Wobbles now await their WobblyBub who is due in May 2012 - actually make that...um....*sigh*...what's the point?

The Pointy End

This current IVF cycle has been very low key. Very quick. Almost painless.

IVF life without Synarel seems much easier. Better still is the hope of a new fertility specialist offering a brand new protocol with lots of bells and whistles. How could an antagonist cycle with two daily doses of FSH plus 5 days of Clomid plus latter days of Orgalutran to ward off ovulation possibly go wrong?

Now we stand before that horrible precipice, where a wrong move could see us make a sharp fall to cycle cancellation. Tomorrow is that critical ultrasound and blood test. I catch the train this afternoon to be there on time. Once before, this round of testing has brought us unstuck. On that occasion it lead to cycle cancellation. I had ‘under’ stimulated, yet one follicle had managed to ‘over’ stimulate and at over 35 mm it was considered a cyst. That in turn led to months of delays and a five month absence of menstruation. What fun! Continue reading The Pointy End

The Ifs, Buts and Maybe of the IVF Asterisk

It seems any discussion of an IVF cycle must take place with the mandatory asterisk.

 

We talk in terms of ‘If the drugs work’, ‘Maybe we will get to egg pick up’ and ‘But what if there is no embryo to transfer?’ It is all just so tentative. We tip toe around as if too afraid to say; “When we have pick up, and get a number of eggs that will make enough quality embryos for transfer….’ Such IVF confidence is beyond us.

 

For us there has to be an imaginary asterisk attached to every statement that must include all the ‘ifs’, ‘buts’ and ‘maybes’ so as not to alert the IVF gods to any unwarranted signs of confidence or the remotest hint of ease with this whole unyielding process.

Continue reading The Ifs, Buts and Maybe of the IVF Asterisk