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Lifeslurper resides in a big brown land called Auuustralia. Her early years remain a mystery cloaked in a veil of depression.

Age 42 Lifeslurper meets the vague but gorgeous Wobbles. “What took him so long to arrive?” She asks.

They make their way together in the world just fine, but are not fine to make a baby – not without some outside help. Enter ART and 2008 the year of 4 IVF cycles & one lousy big fat negative.

Lifeslurper is now 47 years old! Time for a baby is running out fast, so too is her sanity. Now it's 2011 - Lifeslurper & Wobbles have moved into top baby making gear. Donor Egg Cycles are the way to go, after a long pause to take stock after a glorious donor egg BFP & the subsequent loss. This year saw 2 cancelled FET cycles, & and menopause causing delays.

Where to from here? After 10 cycles Lifeslurper & Wobbles now await their WobblyBub who is due in May 2012 - actually make that...um....*sigh*...what's the point?

I read the news today, oh boy…..

Readily admitting most of my dramas are self made is simple fact. Years of inner-reflection have been useful on many levels, yet today I find myself completely ill-equipped to deal with events outside of my experience and control.

 

When disaster strikes at levels previously unknown, what is the average person to do? How can someone not directly touched or affected by events assist? Is it understandable to feel as distressed as I do? I am sure I am not alone, as this seems beyond the scope of the average tragic news story. It will be quite a while before it goes away. Even  long after it no longer rates a regular mention in the media, it will be touching the lives of those affected daily – for many years to come. Yet as I made a quick stop at a nearby supermarket this evening I saw people laughing, chatting and outwardly showing no signs of distress. It somehow seemed wrong. How could we go about our lives with such ease. Why aren’t we as a nation in complete mourning?

 

Should I ignore events because they are for me ‘out of sight, out of mind’ or is it natural to grieve for lives I never knew existed, for homes I never saw, and towns I never visited? Would joining an ever growing list of Facebook groups help me? Can online social networking bring comfort or relief to the victims of disaster?

 

Frankly, I find these events beyond my comprehension. My sense of fear and dread is growing. I can not look away from the online newspaper, aid agencies and official police sites. All of the petty daily life concerns I held up until the middle of Saturday have disintegrated. The death toll is rising like some hellish game of bingo, where the numbers jump higher in an increasing rapid fashion.

Continue reading I read the news today, oh boy…..

Why? Why do we do this?

Greek mythology tells of a king who was punished by Zeus. Sisyphus was sentenced to an eternity of rolling a huge bolder uphill only to watch it roll down again. The frustrating and repetitive nature of this task resulted in the expression of Sisyphean meaning something that is pointless or unrewarding. We do not need to look to ancient times for such an analogy; we have a perfect equivalent in our own contemporary times. Replace that punished king with an average woman who falls within reproductive age and is considered infertile, and substitute that bolder for IVF procedures and there you have it; a ARThean Challenge. Continue reading Why? Why do we do this?

Greatest media infertility myths

Lifeslurper is surely feeling the response to reader’s thoughts on the previous post, The Greatest Infertility Myths and Clichés. I had to admit, thanks to high-levels of secrecy aimed at avoiding future embarrassment, when that baby does not ‘materialise’ after a lengthy round of IVF cycles, I am mostly free of the stupid things people say to those suffering from infertility.

‘Baby?’ I will be able to deflect anyone who dare suspect; ‘what baby?’

Being mostly free of these personally directed clichés means I have more time to direct most of my anger towards the way the media portrays infertility.

Media attitudes towards IVF conceived babies are possibly my main motivation towards my IVF secrecy. I want to keep my potential child free of school yard taunts of “test tube” or “designer” based on media spread IVF ignorance.

Just how often do I have to read a newspaper headline which screams ‘designer baby’ in reference to ART conceived children? Recent coverage of the 30th birthday of the world’s first IVF baby unleashed a whole slew of ‘test tube’ references. Continue reading Greatest media infertility myths